Wavering Stability
There is an uneasy catching sensation in my knee today. I can feel it as I go up and down the stairs at my office. Something is a little bit off. A wavering stability that echos inside me. Will my knee buckle on this step or the next step… will I fall. Can I handle all of the project emergencies being thrown at me today or will I fail. Lunch with ‘Babe’ where ‘being perfect’ and ‘imperfections’ were discussed and a Chinese fortune read: "If you want to climb a ladder you must begin at the first step". My eyes blink from moment to moment trying to focus through astigmatism shapes to see the truth of things. Like-- wanting to be loved doesn’t mean I am. Like-- wanting ‘you’ to call doesn’t make the phone ring. Like-- finding a voice being the first step to telling a story. Like-- little imperfections that make me perfect in my own way. Like-- taking this moment to write down my thoughts, instead of running a multi-tasking race. Like U2 says: "…take this heart and make it break" so that I might feel! Like-- the crick that’s been in my neck for the past few days there’s a nagging need to not have to 'go it alone'. But for this moment-- there are emergencies to handle, clients yelling on a phone that doesn’t stop ringing, and music on the computer to feed my heart in the midst of sewer plans, tract maps and invoices that need my attention. I clean my glasses so my eyes can focus, rub the crick in my neck, stretch out my knee to ease that uneasy catching sensation and continue on…
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Sounds like you need a little time to relax, MatildaKay.
I would suggest an evening out with friends, and a couple of cold beers.
Dr. 200Tercel
Thank you Dr. 200Tercel... that sounds like just the ticket. Only instead of beers, whiskey sours.
Never tried a whiskey sour myself. Usually it's beer, followed by more beer and tequila shots. (And I wonder why I feel so poorly the next day...)
Other night, it's greyhounds. The greyhounds are easier to flush out of my system I have found - I usually feel less worse the next day.
My whole point - sometimes you have to slow down and take care of yourself. Do something to relax - medidate on the fact your car costs more than $200, read a book, get a massage.
Relaxing is good... I read books and get massages on a regular basis...
Greyhounds flush out your system better because of the orange juice. Beer is full of yeast that sits in your stomach add tequila and no wonder you don't feel good.
I have a crick in my body like a crick in the knee like a cold shot of yayayooshka and a babili-slammer followed by walking backwards up dark mountains and dark tidings of falling uphill, on my bottom, and then rah rah, it's all about the relaxation at the top in enlightening boddhisattva moments where my flesh feels soul-like and golden and glows in dreams and god-like glee...
Wow! I want to walk backwards up dark mountains and fall uphill and I want my flesh to feel soul-like and golden and glow in dreams and god-like glee... sounds fabulous!